It All Lasts Forever

Alice said many things...that's my grandmother. She was always full of great advice and little bits of wit that took an especially astute translator to decipher. I think it's the latter that I look back on now and love the most about her. It's the things that take time to sink in that tend to stick. She died with two dresses in her closet and a church filled with people I had never met. All of these people that were touched by her existence. So this is my first blog - dedicated to Alice and her many words of wisdom that I was too young to understand.....

The sole purpose of this blog is to uncover the truth of our existence. Here's the first step:

It all lasts forever.

That's the first little nugget of gold. Take from it what you will. For me, as an adult now, it means that all that you create lasts forever. Words, feelings, art, music - any piece of yourself that you throw into the fodder continues to exist ad infinum. This, to me, is relevant b/c I think that so many of us feel a complete disconnect from everything else...hence the need to blog...to be heard. I'm not blogging b/c I need to be heard. I'm blogging b/c I need you to know that I hear you. Some existential bullshit I feel compelled to fufill.....

I was talking with a musician friend of mine a few months ago and he said he loved to create music because it was entirely disposable. I balked. Music, my friends, is the last frontier of memory. Think of any memory you have - it exists inside some sort of theme music. Whether it be "Row, Row, Row Your Boat" as you sat in the bathtub screaming for your mother as your brother taunted you with his enourmous (yet fascniating) feces jammed in his fist. Or some especially raunchy night half-stripping to "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails (you know you did it too)....music solidifies memory.

And music is but one outlet to remember the touchstones in our life.

Anyway - All of it lasts forever. I suppose what you really want is to know what all of this means for you. Well, I've got the answer for that. While music was the theme for tonight, it only starts there. And the truth is, you're just going to have to figure it out for yourself. Just know that everything you do matters. It all lasts forever. Daunting, but true. Glorious, but true.

Sweet night.